We just went from a family of 3 to a family of 5!! We finally got the call tonight (and of course my husband is working out of town) a set of brothers ages 5 and 4. C is 5 almost 6 and asks questions about everything. P is 4 and is such a sweetheart. He loves the dog, cartoons, and books.
Things are going well so far, but the craziness has only just begun.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
Remebering the Heartache
Right now, in my life, I feel happy. I feel content and I am amazed at the blessings I have been given. Sometimes it is hard to remember what I went through to get to this point, but there are moments where the pain and heartache of the past surface.
I remember what it felt like when my ex-husband told me he had an affair and walked out the door. I remember the hole that was left in my heart that night and the despair I felt.
I remember moving on and living on my own. I was hopeful for the future but I knew deep down I didn't believe I deserved to be happy.
I remember the years of disappointment and despair I felt at not be able to become pregnant. Month after month trying to pick myself up and continue on when all I wanted to do was crawl into a dark hole and never emerge.
THEN...........
I remember my wedding day to my wonderful husband!
I remember seeing those 2 lines, and knowing that my time was finally here!
I remember the birth of my son!
My life has been filled with heartache, but it was that heartache that made me the strong woman I am today. It made me realize how happy my life is now (and even in the tough times I remember how much worse it could be).
So, those nights when I feel down and can clearly remember the heartache are also the nights when I can clearly see my happiness as well.
I remember what it felt like when my ex-husband told me he had an affair and walked out the door. I remember the hole that was left in my heart that night and the despair I felt.
I remember moving on and living on my own. I was hopeful for the future but I knew deep down I didn't believe I deserved to be happy.
I remember the years of disappointment and despair I felt at not be able to become pregnant. Month after month trying to pick myself up and continue on when all I wanted to do was crawl into a dark hole and never emerge.
THEN...........
I remember my wedding day to my wonderful husband!
I remember seeing those 2 lines, and knowing that my time was finally here!
I remember the birth of my son!
My life has been filled with heartache, but it was that heartache that made me the strong woman I am today. It made me realize how happy my life is now (and even in the tough times I remember how much worse it could be).
So, those nights when I feel down and can clearly remember the heartache are also the nights when I can clearly see my happiness as well.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Missed Call
So I have beening waiting for that placement call for over a month now. I think I stopped getting to worried about the phone ringing and started to relax. Well yesterday I was at my Aunt's house making laundry soap (which on a side note turned out really aweseome!) and I got the call.....except that I missed it!!! Really!!! I didn't notice the call until an hour and a half later. I tried to call back but didn't get an answer. Now, I am dealing with anxiety and what if's. Ugggg, well I guess we just start the waiting game again and somehow get rid of this anxiety!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Still Waiting...
Also.... We are still waiting for a placement call. I get jittery on Tuesday's and Thursday's when my Resource Family Consultant has his placement meetings. Well so far the jitters have been for nothing. So I guess we will just keep waiting...... Stay tuned!
New York Anyone??
I need to tell the world that I will be going to New York to see....... NEWSIES ON BROADWAY!! I am so excited I may just listen to the soundtrack all the way there!
So I may be a nerd.... but who wouldn't be excited to go to New York!!! With my best friend as well.... Pretty sure it will be EPIC!
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Crisis List
I just got an email asking foster parents to reply if they would be willing to be put on the crisis list. The crisis list is a list of foster parents who are willing to take children who are removed in the middle of the night, or removed out of "normal" business hours. I first thought it was strange because I was under the impression that being a foster parent meant getting phone calls in the middle of the night or on a Saturday, or Sunday (I mean, trouble in families doesn't only happen M-F 8-5.) So I replied and said that we would like to be on that list....
I initially hesitated sending this email as I thought of how difficult this could be not getting sleep and having to potentially take care of 3 kids..... Then I realized.... Mom's do this all the time (I guess I have gotten spoiled now that Tristan is sleeping 10 hours straight!!) ..... Kids deserve to have someone who cares enough to sit up with them at night and welcome them to a loving home on the scariest night of their of their life. So, I think I can handle some lost sleep if it means being there for kids who really need someone.... and at 2am I am ready to be that someone!!
I initially hesitated sending this email as I thought of how difficult this could be not getting sleep and having to potentially take care of 3 kids..... Then I realized.... Mom's do this all the time (I guess I have gotten spoiled now that Tristan is sleeping 10 hours straight!!) ..... Kids deserve to have someone who cares enough to sit up with them at night and welcome them to a loving home on the scariest night of their of their life. So, I think I can handle some lost sleep if it means being there for kids who really need someone.... and at 2am I am ready to be that someone!!
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